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renniekins
renniekins
Another long weekend
I'm so tired today, I can barely think straight. I'm at work, getting some stuff accomplished, but not a whole lot. Seems like I've been tired a lot recently - but then it's been an incredibly long and full week-and-a-half.

I have a skating practice tonight from 7-8:30, and a competition saturday. If I didn't, I'd probably just leave work early and go home. Go to bed, or at least sprawl in front of the television and allow it to fill my mind with meaninglessness. But I have to go skating, so I might as well stick it out here until then.

Except I'm going to get L's car washed first. She let me borrow her car to drive south for the weekend. 'twas very nice of her, since my car doesn't have cruise control and hers does. On a 7-hour drive, cruise control is a real bonus.

The funeral was hard, sad, beautiful. Can a funeral be beautiful? Maybe just the day and the place were beautiful. The weather was perfect - sunny, somewhat warm, blue sky, and the cemetery was just a really pretty place. We stood on the top of a hill, looking down over other graves and into the trees below. They were all bare, but I bet in the spring it will be just lovely. It was a military funeral; I've never attended a real one before. Very moving, complete with guns, taps, and a huge flag.

In movies (my only frame of reference) when they fold up the flag afterward, it's always so clean and crisp and easy. In reality, it's pretty hard apparently to get a new flag folded back up tightly and into its triangular case, and the MP's had some difficulty with it.

I cried a little bit during the weekend, but mostly I tried to be strong and brave and help out the family as much as I could. I did all the driving. I'm so glad I could be there, and I'm so glad I was able to help out some. It was an emotionally draining time for everyone involved, me the least of all I would imagine. But even so, I'm so worn out right now. Especially since we didn't get in until midnight, and of course I couldn't just fall right asleep when we arrived; I had to wander ghostlike around the house until 3am. A good night's sleep will probably do wonders for me though, so that's my goal for tonight.
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encorecrazay From: encorecrazay Date: January 28th, 2002 02:31 pm (UTC) (Link)
Do try to get that sleep tonight. Thanks supporting him through this all.
mrdisco99 From: mrdisco99 Date: January 28th, 2002 02:59 pm (UTC) (Link)
It sounds like a good night's sleep will be well deserved after everything you've done. I hope you'll be able to get it. I imagine it might be hard with all that still fresh.

You're doing a great thing by being there for them. Maybe if you focus on that, it'll give you the nice thoughts you'll need to make it through the night.
renniekins From: renniekins Date: January 29th, 2002 08:13 am (UTC) (Link)

Re:

Thanks for your encouragement. I'm really glad I am able to help out, and make things a little easier. I did manage to focus on nice thoughts and get quite a lot of sleep last night. Thanks!
radiantsoul From: radiantsoul Date: January 28th, 2002 03:42 pm (UTC) (Link)
Glad that the funeral went as well as these things can.
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