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renniekins
renniekins
This Day
I'm not very happy today. I wouldn't go so far as to say I'm sad, just...unhappy. There's a difference, I think.

I'm not entirely sure why. Perhaps it's because I had a blah day yesterday, followed by an emotionally stressful evening. Perhaps it's because I slept very poorly last night. Perhaps it's because work is frustrating this week, and I don't have anything challenging to work on. Perhaps it's because I still don't feel entirely healthy, with a lingering thread of pain running from under my jaw to my right ear.

Or perhaps it's just that I'm having a "day", not a great day, not a terrible day, just a day. I read once that it may be a uniquely Modern American thing, this feeling that we should be Happy all the time. Nobody is happy all the time.

Whatever the cause, I feel very tired and mopey today. I'd like to be alone, or at least not at work. Maybe having a nap with a cat or two.

I'm currently hiding out in my car. I didn't feel like driving anywhere for my lunch break, but I walked across the street for a sandwich. I walked back and ate it here, sprawling in the pushed-back driver's seat with a CD playing and the windows cracked. It's a sunny day today, and the slight breeze feels good.

I like it here. This alone-time helps. Too bad I have to go back to the real world soon. On the plus side, the day won't last forever. They never do.

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hannunvaakuna From: hannunvaakuna Date: February 22nd, 2006 06:43 pm (UTC) (Link)
there's an army of us having a day like today. i say today is fired. tomorrow damn well better be better!
specialagentm From: specialagentm Date: February 22nd, 2006 08:26 pm (UTC) (Link)
I'm having a bit of "a day" too. Like everyone else, I'm just figuring it's one of those things that comes and goes, I'm just trying not to stay stuck to it as it departs.
jeffreyab From: jeffreyab Date: February 22nd, 2006 07:13 pm (UTC) (Link)
Movie Night?

Often works for me.
operatic From: operatic Date: February 22nd, 2006 08:42 pm (UTC) (Link)
*hug!*
nishar From: nishar Date: February 23rd, 2006 12:12 am (UTC) (Link)
I hope you are feeling better now Rennie. *hugs* We all have days like this. Tomorrow will be a better day for you. Cause this day will be over!
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