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the story of an invisible girl
renniekins
renniekins
Tired and Old
My hotel room has a mirrored closet door right across from the toilet. I'm not sure I like watching myself pee. That's a private act which really shouldn't be shared with anyone, not even mirror-images.

It's 2am, and I should be long in bed, but my mind keeps spinning even though I'm terribly tired. A few minutes ago I stared at myself in the mirror as I sat on the toilet, and my face looked old. Old and tired, clearly an additional sign I should go to sleep.

I frequently get mistaken for looking younger than my 35 years. I don't think anyone would make that mistake tonight. Most of the time, I think a part of my young appearance is a result of a light in my face, the cheer and exuberence I wear most days. Looking myself in the mirror just now, I tried to lift my expression, muster my face into a happy smile.

My mouth moved, but the cheer stopped just above the nose. My tired-looking eyes didn't move at all. It was impressively fake-looking cheer.

Oh well, I tried. Somewhat. I'll be MUCH better once I've had a good night's sleep. (That should happen saturday morning; something to look forward to.)

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jer_ From: jer_ Date: August 11th, 2006 11:36 am (UTC) (Link)
I, for one, placed you WAY younger than that when I met you, and, most of the time, I place you WAY younger than that, even though I know how old you are now...

And, maybe everyone looks old when they're peeing... :)
renniekins From: renniekins Date: August 12th, 2006 02:12 am (UTC) (Link)
That's good to know... thank you!
greyyguy From: greyyguy Date: August 11th, 2006 12:46 pm (UTC) (Link)
To be fair- unless it is one that is long overdue, I don't think I've ever been particularly cheerful when peeing.
infernus1218 From: infernus1218 Date: August 11th, 2006 01:55 pm (UTC) (Link)
sometimes its not the years, but the mileage that ages us before our time.
jeffreyab From: jeffreyab Date: August 11th, 2006 02:08 pm (UTC) (Link)
Are you doing as much exercise as you used to?

Maybe your body is missing the endorphines.
retepsnave From: retepsnave Date: August 11th, 2006 03:04 pm (UTC) (Link)
get some good beauty rest!

and yes, agreed about the bathroom mirror thing... ex's parent's house had a wall of mirror opposite the toilet... most bizarrly unplesent and unerving!
;-)
grrry From: grrry Date: August 11th, 2006 04:22 pm (UTC) (Link)

lil' kid

Ah yer a wee little kidlet. If'n Annette & I weren't married and I tried to date ye, I'd be robbin' t'cradle, lassie. Don't be foolin' yerself inta thinkin' yer a'gettin' old then. Why, dang chil'... when ye hear me a talkin' about the Civil War, Ah means da War of the Roses.
thatguychuck From: thatguychuck Date: August 11th, 2006 04:25 pm (UTC) (Link)
I just used a toilet that had a full length mirror right behind it. It's different watching yourself stand up to pee.

Not as weird as a friend's house when I was 16. There was a small decorative mirror behind the toilet, assumedly placed there by the decorating mother in the house. If you were 5' 9", It was at the PERFECT angle to show only your penis as you were peeing standing up.
nishar From: nishar Date: August 11th, 2006 04:51 pm (UTC) (Link)
I hope you got enough sleep last night.
ms_hecubus From: ms_hecubus Date: August 11th, 2006 10:12 pm (UTC) (Link)
My apartment in Dallas had a mirror across from the toilet. There was a cockroach that no one ever say in person, but only in mirror image. For all I know it was a ghost bug.
renniekins From: renniekins Date: August 12th, 2006 02:13 am (UTC) (Link)
Wow, a ghost cockroach. Spoooooooky!
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