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the story of an invisible girl
renniekins
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Just Keep Racing
A coworker of mine died this morning. That is, a previous coworker -- she left the company about two years ago to pursue other opportunities. She lived in Cleveland, but I met her a few times. She worked with us for many years, so a lot of people have kept in touch. She was a very sweet woman, only maybe ten years older than me... I'm not sure. She had a teenage daughter.

When I knew her, I was not even aware that she was a breast cancer "survivor". I have to put that in quotes, because it came back just a couple of months ago. This time she didn't survive; it had metastasized into more body parts and was incurable. They only gave her 5 weeks or so, and today her fight ended. It's not fair, because I believe that she was cancer-free for enough years that everyone thought (hoped) it was gone forever.

Although I didn't know her well, this news makes me so sad. Not to mention angry and fearful. This disease should be fixed! Medicine has made so many advances, and the prognosis is positive for so many women -- I forget sometimes that not everybody makes it. More accurately, I think I choose to forget, until it is shoved in my face again.

It's also frustrating because I feel so helpless. Aside from continuing to contribute and raise money, there is nothing I can do. Well, I can also continue hoping and praying. That none of my family, friends, loved ones, will be taken. That no more women will have to suffer. That a permanent cure will be found.

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specialagentm From: specialagentm Date: February 12th, 2007 05:11 pm (UTC) (Link)
You're doing all you can, sweetie. They call it "The Big C" for a reason, it's a tough beast to fight, but we're all going to keep trying. I was just angsting myself a bit yesterday, for some reason I was fearful my brother's tongue cancer was going to come back... :-(

I'm so sad for your co-worker. I agree, it's not fair. Sometimes, the arbitrary and unfair nature of life just hits you in the face. I don't have any ultimately satisfying answers either. :-(
netmouse From: netmouse Date: February 12th, 2007 05:34 pm (UTC) (Link)
*hug*
cynnerth From: cynnerth Date: February 12th, 2007 05:44 pm (UTC) (Link)
Oh no! That's so sad. :(

I have a friend from my childhood who survived breast cancer about 10 years ago. Like you, I keep "forgetting" that it could come back.
hannunvaakuna From: hannunvaakuna Date: February 12th, 2007 05:45 pm (UTC) (Link)
*hug*
joline From: joline Date: February 12th, 2007 05:47 pm (UTC) (Link)
that is horrifying. :(

her poor family.
i tend to (want to) believe my mom is in the clear. i guess she never is. :(
renniekins From: renniekins Date: February 12th, 2007 05:51 pm (UTC) (Link)
Same here, exactly. I sure hope both of our moms are in the clear.... Lots of people are. You just never know for sure though. *sigh*
infernus1218 From: infernus1218 Date: February 12th, 2007 06:07 pm (UTC) (Link)
that's just so sad.

I don't think that there is anything appropriate to say, but and making a contribution to a charity hoping that they will develop a cure faster.
mbumby From: mbumby Date: February 12th, 2007 06:13 pm (UTC) (Link)
Many hugs.
ellison From: ellison Date: February 12th, 2007 06:14 pm (UTC) (Link)
I'm so sorry. Cancer is a very scary disease, and it's so hard losing people to it.
operatic From: operatic Date: February 12th, 2007 07:32 pm (UTC) (Link)
*hug!*
From: nicegeek Date: February 12th, 2007 08:54 pm (UTC) (Link)
There's always hope.
jenaflynn From: jenaflynn Date: February 13th, 2007 03:31 am (UTC) (Link)
Hugs, and so sorry to hear that. It is terrible when it comes back on someone who has survived through it once already. My last GF lost her mother that way. She beat it once, but a decade later, it came back out of nowhere.

I hope that they find a cure, or something.. anything, and soon.
johnridley From: johnridley Date: February 13th, 2007 01:25 pm (UTC) (Link)
This is as good a place to remind everyone as any.
www.thebreastcancersite.com - go there and click every day. It's not much but it's something. Click on the other linked sites (thehungersite, therainforestsite, etc) if you're inclined.
And of course, when the race comes around this year, sponsor your favorite runner :)
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