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renniekins
renniekins
Non-Anniversary
Had everything gone as planned, today would have been my second wedding anniversary.

Instead, it's just a day, like any other day, a nothing-day.

I remember we celebrated our "negative one" anniversary, the day that was precisely one year before our planned wedding. He got me flowers and a manicure, both of which completely surprised me. I didn't think it would occur to him, just a predicted anniversary, not a "real" one. I got him a card, which I had thought would surprise him, and we went out to dinner.

Our fifth anniversary would have taken place on Friday the Thirteenth. I thought that was cool, in a silly-gothy sort of way.

I don't really have much to say, just wanted to commemorate the day. The un-anniversary. This is a weird time of year for me. It'll get worse.

Current Music: Just One Angel, by Uncle Bonsai

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hannunvaakuna From: hannunvaakuna Date: May 13th, 2002 10:14 am (UTC) (Link)
*hugs*
(i don't do this often enough anymore, irl or online)
renniekins From: renniekins Date: May 13th, 2002 11:43 am (UTC) (Link)

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Thanks...*hugs back*
cannibal From: cannibal Date: May 13th, 2002 07:08 pm (UTC) (Link)
I know you wish he could get drunk, call you up, and make you miserable, like my ex did on our first non-anniversary.

I'm sorry. I wish I'd invited you to grief class tonight. I was thinking about it last time, but I didn't talk to you about it... it was like, "gee, both Howard and Rennie should be in this class, and they're the ones who have helped me most".

We talked a lot about the stupid things people say, trying to help... "I understand"... this one woman told how angry she was at someone in church on Sunday who said, "I understand, my dog just died". She said she just wanted to kick her in the shins! So, I don't understand, I can't understand. I love you though, and I'm sorry, and God loves you, and he said that we should love one another, that's how we get through this kind of thing.

What are the other bad dates, so I can be prepared for them? I knew, all the time I was growing up, both of my parents were miserable to be around on October 14-16th, the days my sister was born/died.
renniekins From: renniekins Date: May 13th, 2002 07:55 pm (UTC) (Link)
I know you wish he could get drunk, call you up, and make you miserable, like my ex did on our first non-anniversary.

Actually, I don't know if that was meant to be sarcastic or not, but yes.

It's so true, that only by loving and helping one another can we get through these things. Knowing I have friends who care gives me strength, so thank you for your response. Other dates? My birthday is somewhat hard. His birthday (6-29), and then the day of his death (7-6).
cannibal From: cannibal Date: May 14th, 2002 03:02 pm (UTC) (Link)
No, it was quite straightforward, I think we've even discussed that before.

You're welcome. I'll note down the dates... July 6 is SEMGS, probably be really fun and 4th of julyish, want to go? Love you.

Just realized, speaking of birthdays, Howard's is coming up very soon!
renniekins From: renniekins Date: May 14th, 2002 06:11 pm (UTC) (Link)
I remember talking about it before....I just never really was convinced that you believed me. I'm not so sure about SEMGS; it sounds fun but I'm not sure...last year I went out of town. Was considering doing that again.

Yes, I noticed his birthday when I was checking out his spiffy new profile this morning! What should we do to celebrate?
cannibal From: cannibal Date: June 8th, 2002 10:12 am (UTC) (Link)

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Remember SEMGS, Jul 6!
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