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So what with being so sore, and having slept in late, and been up… - cellophane
the story of an invisible girl
renniekins
renniekins
So what with being so sore, and having slept in late, and been up late, and whatever other excuse I could bring to mind, I decided I needed a sleeping pill to help me to go to sleep tonight. I have a bad habit though, which is to stay and watch its effects for awhile, as they fascinate me. Right now, for example, in reading my own journal, the yellow letters seemed to bounce off the black background in patterns. Kind of like those mystery pictures you see, where you have to cross your eyes, and all of a sudden you see a pattern and a 3D image comes leaping off the screen! They's what my journal is doing to me. Only the pictures aren't as interesting - possibly because they are meaningless. Still pretty neat though: not often you get to see a movie/screen in 3D without those funky glasses.

On a side note, everybody should go to limewire or whatever is your favorite napster-replacement, and download "bolero" by Ravel, which is just a beautiful piece of music. I love the way it builds and swirls and gains, pressing into something greater the entire 15min length of the piece! .....and if you were ever lucky enough to see Torvill and Dean skate this in the Olympics, oh when was that, 1984??, well it was truly the most spectacular piece of athletic artistry that God has blessed us to see, so you were lucky. Oh dear, I am high and my coherence is fading. Just to clarify, as you all shoot me dirty looks through the twinax, these are legal drugs I'm on, and they'll fade soon leaving me a healthy functioning adult --- eer, at least as much as I ever am. *grin*

aaahhh, the music slammed into its chaotically stunning conclusion.....and I am going to bed. bonne nuit.

Current Mood: spacy
Current Music: Bolero by Ravel (oh so spectacular)

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guingel From: guingel Date: November 18th, 2001 06:59 am (UTC) (Link)
lol. . . wow. I've never taken sleeping pills, even though I probably need them. Or something. . . it always takes me forever to get to sleep. I actually keep myself awake cos I think too much.

I'm downloading the song. . . sadly, 1984 is two years before my birth. =( I love watching figure skating though. And you skate? That's so cool. . . I've gone skating like, twice in my life, and i love it, but I'm terrible at it. It always takes me most of the time to get the hang of it, and then we have to leave. Curses.
radiantsoul From: radiantsoul Date: November 18th, 2001 08:53 am (UTC) (Link)
I keep myself awake with thinking to. I lie awake and sort of think to myself. And I see pictures in my mind. Annoying.
Perhaps I need sleeping pills - I never knew they caused you to hallucinate. Sounds like fun to me.
renniekins From: renniekins Date: November 18th, 2001 10:08 am (UTC) (Link)
I don't think it's so much hallucinating as just distorted perceptions. It's like your essence, your self, has drifted a little bit away from your body, so you don't function quite normal - like the words on my screen weren't turning into spiders and crawling around or anything, they just looked weird and my depth perception was all off. I get uncoordinated as well, and my thought patterns get more chaotic. Generally I find the whole the fascinating, and often I'll write for awhile "under the influence" so to speak, because I find the slight twist it gives my mind produces some unique imagery and concepts.

I'm a terrible sleeper. Just like both of you said, I think way too much. I remember it used to drive S crazy when we were living together, and he'd say "just turn off your brain and you'll fall right asleep!" But that never made any sense to me. How can one stop thinking?? There is no off button. But I guess for some people, it's no problem.

Heh, it's actually quite a tragedy, becuase I love to sleep! Like this morning, I slept in until after 11, and it was wonderful. Maybe I just appreciate sleep so much because it isn't something easily attained.

Anyway, the sleeping pills are nice, because they do almost always make me sleep well, which can be such a relief when I know I'm exhausted but just can't fall asleep. But (as you might have guessed) they are "habit forming", so I don't take them often. Last thing I need is an addiction, so I'm very careful, even though I do like 'em. I also stay away from illegal drugs, because my life, no matter how weird and messed up sometimes, is way too interesting to throw it away to chemicals.
radiantsoul From: radiantsoul Date: November 18th, 2001 10:30 am (UTC) (Link)
It does sound cool. I am fascinated by the way that the mind works. The way we perceive things and dividing line between fantasy and reality. The two are closely related, every reality started out as a fantasy and every fantasy must have some impact on reality. The way the two work together is magical. I also do not like drugs, for the same reason I wouldn't like to drive blindfolded...control of your mind is a stupid thing to give up! However hypnosis is very cool too change the way the mind works. Guided visualisations are also pretty cool.
renniekins From: renniekins Date: November 18th, 2001 10:38 am (UTC) (Link)
So do you like Bolero? I think it's very cool. Yes, I skate, doing a sport called synchronized skating.
I skate at the adult level, on a very competetive team. We will be traveling to Lake Placid in March to skate in the national championships. We are hoping to win, also...*fingers crossed*..! Our first competition is Dec 2, which is coming up awfully fast, hence the extra practices recently.
guingel From: guingel Date: November 18th, 2001 01:14 pm (UTC) (Link)
Yes, I like Bolero very much!
That's sooo cool! Wow! Good luck!
I use so many exclamation points. . .
radiantsoul From: radiantsoul Date: November 19th, 2001 03:09 am (UTC) (Link)
Good luck in the contest! I am sure you are the USA answer to Jane Torville.
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