Saturday was a pretty fun day. I slept in some, then I spent the morning being fairly lazy. In the afternoon, SC picked me up and we went to an early Thanksgiving potluck event. There's a group of people who get together every month for "friends, conversation, and ridiculous amounts of food." I don't attend regularly, but it's always fun when I am able to make it. Not to mention delicious. We had turkey with all the trimmings, plus lots of other goodies. I was thoroughly and happily stuffed, and I enjoyed relaxing with friends I don't get to see very often.
Sunday morning I woke up with a headache, which was a bummer. (Actually it came on saturday evening.) Fortunately I didn't have anything I needed to do during the day, so I treated it with lots of advil, naps, and relaxation. It never fully went away, but it got better at least. It made for a lazy day, but I think I really needed all that rest.
At 4:30 I had myself a late lunch, then I went to skating practice. The headache retreated enough that I was able to ignore it completely during practice, so that was good. We worked on a pretty fun new trick, where I get to be the end of a wheel...yay! I like being the end.
After skating, a friend came over and we made popcorn and watched The Untouchables together, which neither of us had ever seen. It was a really nice quiet way to finish the weekend. Even though my headache had returned, I had a truly lovely time.
I did something to my knee while skating. I'm really scared, but I'm trying to convince myself (and my knee) that it's no big deal and that it will be fine. I caught my blade and fell during a rocker turn. It was a left rocker, but I landed on my right hip. It hurt of course, and my leg felt numb and shaky at first, but nothing abnormal.
I got up, and it held my weight fine. Just normal soreness from a fall. I said I was okay, and I started skating again. Everything was okay until started doing right-over-left back crossovers. As I started to pull that right leg in, I felt an incredible wrongness in my knee. That's all I can say - it didn't hurt, it just felt wrong. Very weak, unstable. It just wasn't functioning at all right.
It terrifies me. Bruising, pulled muscles, these are no problem; I know how to heal from those. But this weakness and instability, this is scary. It reminds me of ligament damage. The thing is: it's not swollen at all. I broke the ACL in my other knee years ago, and it instantly swelled up huge. So this can't be that kind of trauma... right?
Last night, it didn't even hurt. Today, it hurts to straighten or bend it all the way. But it's still not swollen. So it can't be bad, right? I haven't checked its stability; I don't want to do anything that might make it worse. I've been very careful not to twist it at all. I iced it a lot last night, even though it wasn't swollen and didn't hurt. I'm so nervous. I need my knee in working order, I have lots to do this year! Please, if I leave it alone, let it get better all on its own.
I have to skate tomorrow night. I have a PT appointment for my shoulder at 2. Maybe I'll ask if she'll evaluate the knee for me and tell me what to do. Sheesh, I seem to be full of minor injuries and incidents this year. This sucks, I'm so worried, even though I'm trying really hard not to be.
There is no ugly. I just put that in to complete the phrase. Despite everything, or maybe because of everything, life is beautiful.