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the story of an invisible girl
Okay. I am less depressed today, although still bummed when I think about it. I don't even know precisely what my options are, because I haven't talked to my knee doctor yet (he's not back in the office 'til monday). He may have a different opinion than the radiologist's report; I don't know. I can hope so!

But really, what's the worst-case scenario? I think it's an ACL reconstruction. I've had one of those before on the other knee. It sucked, and it took almost a year to recover fully, but now it works great. That's not too bad of a worst-case scenario: there are people way worse off than me.... people who can't walk, can't see, can't even take care of themselves anymore... This is okay. This is fixable. And I have lots of friends to support me whatever happens.

Even if that's what I need to do though (and I don't know yet), I'm not doing it until after the synchro skating season. I went skating last night. I'll continue skating until the national championships are over in early March. I have no intention of stopping; I'm just going to have to work around this injury until then. I've done it this long, I can manage a couple more months.

The frustrating thing is that I'm realizing it may very well not get a whole lot better. Not if it's a full tear, which seems to be what the MRI is saying. The weakness and instability will remain unless I have surgery. I kept hoping that with PT it would get stronger, so I've been skipping certain tricks. Now I suspect that I just need to find a safe way to do them anyway.

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jkling From: jkling Date: December 31st, 2003 10:44 am (UTC) (Link)

I had ACL surgery on my right knee a few years ago, so I know what it's like. But as you point out, it's fixable (though I never quite got back to playing basketball, which kinda sucks because I love playing basketball the way you love to skate. But I suspect skating is less of a problem to pick up again).

Well, I hope the radiologist is wrong. But if not, I wish you a swift and full recovery!
juliebata From: juliebata Date: December 31st, 2003 04:13 pm (UTC) (Link)

In a quandry now...

See, replyhazy and I were making noises about maybe driving down to Chicago to watch you guys skate in January. (Any info on the exact date and location would be much appreciated.)
That would encourage you to skate and risk further damage and injury. That would be bad!
We want to see you... but... but... oh...

Oh, if you e-mail me with your snail-mail address, I can send you photos of your visit to Madison!

renniekins From: renniekins Date: January 2nd, 2004 07:21 am (UTC) (Link)

Re: In a quandry now...

Well, I'm planning on skating whether or not you guys come, so you might as well come and see the show!! Hopefully it'll be fun. *grin*

I don't have tons of details right now, but it'll be on saturday Jan 31, probably in the early evening? In Geneva IL. I'm pretty sure this must be the ice arena, since it's the only one in Geneva I found:
cannibal From: cannibal Date: December 31st, 2003 11:16 pm (UTC) (Link)
Oh... hugs. You take care of yourself, hon, God bless you and give you a great new year.
renniekins From: renniekins Date: January 1st, 2004 01:35 am (UTC) (Link)
Thanks. Blessings and hugs to you also, now and for the new year... glad to hear your trips are going so nicely.
cannibal From: cannibal Date: January 1st, 2004 09:01 am (UTC) (Link)
You're welcome, and it's great to hear from you, thanks.
renniekins From: renniekins Date: January 1st, 2004 02:13 pm (UTC) (Link)
It's always good to hear from you too! Hopefully I'll even get to see you again semi-soon....have a safe drive back.
cannibal From: cannibal Date: January 1st, 2004 08:06 pm (UTC) (Link)
Thanks, yes!
swerve From: swerve Date: January 1st, 2004 09:00 pm (UTC) (Link)


The frustrating thing is that I'm realizing it may very well not get a whole lot better.

I've been following the whole story of your pain and MRI and have just been repeatedly unable to comment. I'm really sorry this is happening to you. I don't know much about knees, but I'm told that a blowout is really awful. Please be careful, okay?

renniekins From: renniekins Date: January 2nd, 2004 12:28 pm (UTC) (Link)

Re: :/

Thanks for being here. I know you know the frustrated and helpless feeling of being injured! I hate not being able to properly trust my body. I'm trying to be careful... *hugs back*
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