January 16th, 2002


What do I mean by "I love you"

This question came up in my friends list, from cynnerth, who apparently got it from i. It's an interesting question. After thinking about the answer, I decided to post it here in my own journal.

So....what do I, renniekins, mean when I say "I love you" (to a boy (that I'm dating))?

I care about everything that's going on in your life, in your head, good and bad.
I miss you when you're not around. Even if I just saw you yesterday.
I wonder what you're doing today, and if it's going well.
It upsets me to think of you getting hurt or sick.
When I am hurt or sick, I wish you were with me.
When I think of nice things you do, I feel warm and fuzzy inside.
When I think of something fun I'd like to do, I wonder if you'd enjoy it too.
When I see something that I respond to in some way, I want to share it with you.
I find myself avoiding things I know you dislike.
I think my life is better for having known you.
When I think you disapprove of me or don't like me in some way, I am devastated.
Soft kisses and gentle touching mean more to me than sex.
When I am with you, I feel safe.
When I am going to bed alone, I think of you.
I feel honored when you share something difficult with me.
I feel sad when you keep things from me.
I feel sad when I keep things from you.
I want to do things that make you happy, even (sometimes) things I don't like.
When I want to run away and hide from the world, I worry that I'd miss you.
  • Current Mood
    contemplative contemplative


I downloaded this cool Palm client the other day, tested it, and it worked great! But then when I wrote a post to brag about it, it never showed up. ): Maybe it doesn't approve of bragging? I wonder if this one will work.


After arguing and begging and getting headache after headache at work, I have finally convinced them I needed a bigger monitor! Even after that, it took forever, but today....ah, today the legends became reality and I have a (slightly) bigger monitor.

It's still only a 17", which in most high tech environments would be considered fairly ludicrous, but it's way better than my puny little 15" I was using. (Darn insurance company.) Just terribly difficult to code when you can only see a fraction of what you're writing, and JBuilder, while a great tool, really uses up a ton of screenspace. I had to either adjust it so that all the text was comfortable to read but I had to constantly scroll around to see most of my code (greatly reducing my productivity), or get a majority of the code to fit but have it be too small to read without straining, especially by the end of the day.

Anyway, my new and bigger screen looks nice, and I'm happy. At least for now - heehee.
  • Current Music
    Uncle Bonsai, "I love you, I love you, I'm trying to read"