April 4th, 2004


A bit sickly

I have a fever. It's not a high fever at all, but I feel feverish anyway. I dislike the feeling: waves of heat washing over me, tingling running up and down my skin, sweaty and flushed face, goose-bumps popping out whenever I remove my hoodie.

"I'm not sick, but I'm not well." That's a line from a song, it's a song I know, but I can't get any more of it than that to run through my head. I don't actually care anyway, it's not important enough for me to figure it out.

I've been feeling somewhat off for the past few days. Not exactly ill, but not right either. Like my throat feels weird and thick, but not scratchy or sore. I've been sneezing a bit more than usual, but I'm not stuffy, and my glands aren't swollen. I'm tired all the time...but that's not new. My temperature is 99.5. It is usually in the low 97's -- I'm naturally cold-blooded.

I think this is all just my body trying to deal with the changes it's going through. It is expending all of its energy trying to heal my knee, so it's becoming a bit lax in keeping up with the rest of my health. I need to just give it time and energy, so it can fix itself.

I'm also going vicodin-free today, to see if that improves anything. I don't know, but it's a theory. I've been alternating between taking tylenol and advil every 3 hours, like my surgeon-friend told me to, and I'm not in a lot of pain. I'll take a vitamin, maybe that will help also.

My knee is feeling quite a bit better, at least. Like I said, the pain isn't terrible right now (keeping a fairly constant level of painkillers in my blood probably helps). I can walk with one crutch quite comfortably. In fact if I don't try to use it or move it, it feels pretty good! It is still extremely stiff, and I can't move it very far or very well yet...but it is definitely improving. Even so, sitting at a computer grows uncomfortable pretty quickly. Plus I still tire quickly. Not to mention I haven't even tried driving yet.

So I'm not going back to work tomorrow. I just talked to my boss, and he's okay with that. He says I really lucked out timing-wise, because our projects are in a real lull right now. There's not a ton I could be doing there right now, even if I were to go in. This is the perfect time for me to work on recovering, because I won't just end up with piles more work when I do make it in.

I'll take a few more days off, see when I'm feeling up to it. There's nothing wrong with that. I have the sick time to use, and there isn't a lot going on at work. I'll just concentrate on getting better for awhile.