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Still Sick
Longest cold ever. Or maybe I'm just impatient. Okay, I'm definitely impatient. Still, it's been over a week now. I wish it would go away.

I'm better than yesterday though. I'm at work, for one thing, instead of where I was yesterday - sprawled on my couch, moaning pitifully. (Nah, that's not true. I wasn't moaning. Well, not very often at least. Occasionally whimpering a little maybe, but very bravely. Yeah, that's it. Brave.)

It's strange: I thought I was getting better, but yesterday was the worst I've felt so far. Along with the standard cold symptoms, I had a terrible headache. It was there all day, growing progressively worse and worse, and my numerous applications of advil did nothing to touch it. I even tried a vicodin, which took the edge off of it for awhile, but that was all.

I spent the day alternating between sleeping and staring blankly at the television. I occasionally checked my email, but sitting up hurt too much to stay long. By late afternoon, my skull was filled with Liquid Pain. Moving or lifting it was difficult, and standing up sent the pain sloshing everywhere, making me feel unstable and nauseous.

I knew I was probably somewhat dehydrated, and I knew I was supposed to be drinking fluids. I had a bottle of water that I occasionally sipped from, but drinking seemed like too much work. At some point I forced myself to eat a cereal bar, thinking food would help, but that was just exhausting. Mostly I just sprawled on my couch with my tissues and my cats, trying to find a position where my head did not hurt too much.

G came over for a bit, kindly bringing me a thermos of soup, plus some lemon and honey! I couldn't bring myself to eat anything yet, but I really appreciated it even so. It was great to see him, and we talked for a bit. Sitting up and talking made my head hurt though, so he didn't stay very long.

I knew C was supposed to come over to pick up some stuff in the evening, so I mustered up enough energy to turn my porch light on before I curled up in a ball on the couch, half-asleep. Then I thought I should have unlocked the door for him, but it was too far away, and I knew he still had a key anyway.

A little while later, I thought I heard a car in my driveway. I waited, but I didn't hear anything more, so I figured I was imagining it. Then, far away, I heard the sound of my door opening. Puzzled that it sounded so far away, I glanced at my front door. It was closed. "I must be hallucinating, that's all," I thought, and I shut my eyes again. A few minutes later, I heard him stomping snow off his shoes by the side door. "Oh. That makes more sense."

C finally appeared, with orange juice, more chicken soup, cookies, and cough drops! Very nice of him. I still couldn't eat anything, but I did drink some oj. When I told him about the Sphere Of Pain where my head had once been, he asked if it was sinus-related. I had considered that, but I didn't think so. It wasn't in my face, it was all above and behind my ears. He convinced me to take a decongestant anyway, plus some more advil.

I slumped against his shoulder, not wanting to lift my head, and we talked for awhile. Sometimes when I'm ill, it colors how I see the rest of my life. I have a terrible cold right now, so surely I will always have it, right? So we were talking about an event scheduled for october, which would involve some running. "I'm too sick to run," I said. "So I can't go."

He laughed at me. At some later point in the conversation though, I miraculously started to feel a little better! My Monster Unmanageable Headache retreated to just a normal headache. I could stand without nausea. I felt like I just had a cold, instead of feeling at death's door. I'm not sure what did it -- visiting with G and C, the advil, the decongestant, the oj, or perhaps the combination of all of it... but I was ever-so-relieved and grateful, regardless of the reason.

I was finally well enough to eat, so I had some chicken soup. Then I had a few chocolate chip cookies, plus some wonderful tea (from my favorite barista) with the yummy honey and lemon that G had donated. I felt human again. It was lovely.

Today I even made it back to work. I enjoyed G's lemony chicken soup for lunch. I'm still stuffy and headachey, but I feel mostly human. Yay for health and good friends! Maybe this time I'm really on my way to being recovered - I hope so... I'm tired of my body's falling-apartness.
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From: xxbr0kenheartxx Date: March 17th, 2004 03:49 pm (UTC) (Link)
you are always sick ^.^
renniekins From: renniekins Date: March 18th, 2004 07:57 am (UTC) (Link)
Sure seems like it sometimes!

Although remember last time, I was only HALF sick. (:
From: xxbr0kenheartxx Date: March 18th, 2004 02:45 pm (UTC) (Link)
oh yeah.
figure_skater From: figure_skater Date: March 18th, 2004 07:41 pm (UTC) (Link)
Sorry you were sick! I was sick too earlier this week and it was no fun.
renniekins From: renniekins Date: March 19th, 2004 11:37 am (UTC) (Link)
I find lots of us often get sick after nationals - it's like your body's been under so much stress, once you let go of it all you're an extra easy target for germs or something.

That's my theory anyway.
fachless From: fachless Date: March 19th, 2004 05:45 am (UTC) (Link)
As the Queen of Sinuses, I would suggest that you might want to see your Dr. about this one. If it has lasted more thant a week, it is most likely a sinus infection. Especially with all the flying you've done (Congrats on your win, btw). Your headache sounds classic sinus-related as well. If you take more decongestants, you will probably notice that they help your head pain. See if you can find an ENT that will do a sinus wash. Sounds disgusting, but I swear it's the best thing since sliced bread. You're always welcome to come down and visit my ENT. He LOVES to do sinus washes!
renniekins From: renniekins Date: March 19th, 2004 11:35 am (UTC) (Link)
Thank you, O Sinus Queen. I was just starting to wonder yesterday if this hadn't gone on long enough, and considering visiting the dreaded doctor. (I live in fear of going to the doctor and being told "nothing is wrong with you", so I try to wait for things to go away on their own as long as possible.) So my stuffiness plus your note this morning helped make my decision, and I saw my doc today. She thinks it's probably a sinus infection also. No sinus wash (that does scary), but now I have antibiotics and decongestants. I hope they help -- I'm sick of being sick!!!
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