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the story of an invisible girl
This morning it took me almost 2 hours between the time my alarm went off and the time I got out of bed. I was so exhausted! Not just sleepy, but all of my muscles just didn't want to move. I didn't even get up to go to the bathroom, because that involved more moving than I could achieve.

I went to PenguiCon over the weekend. I had a really great time, but it totally wore me out....even though I got way more sleep than is normal at a con. Well, come to think of it, my first week back at work had already mostly worn me out. PenguiCon just finished the job.) By Sunday afternoon, I was tripping over my own shoes when trying to walk! Even though I was assisted by 2 crutches.

I used both crutches most of the con. Not because I really need them to walk anymore, but as a safety device. For one thing, people give me extra space and time when they see me with crutches (it's like an alert flag). For another thing, if I do get bumped into, I can catch myself and balance myself (after all, even with crutches I remain the semi-invisible girl). For a final thing, it's nice to have some extra support when doing a lot of walking and standing around (a place to lean when my knee gets tired).

I had a very nice time. I hung out with a lot of great people, including some I rarely ever get to see.... rooming and hanging out with dreadpiratesiri was especially keen. Oh and look: netmouse gave me a sparkley hat!
(penguicon photo albums one and two)

Too bad the con (plus the 5 full days of work prior) left me half-dead this morning! I ended up taking the morning off of work. By the time I was finally up and mobilized, it was 10am. I had a PT appointment at 11:30, and it seemed silly to go to work for what would end up to be only about 45 minutes.

My PT appointment went okay. Except for the part where he massaged my scars, and I cringed with my hand in my mouth to keep from either screaming or hitting him. Or both. The exercises are feeling better though, and I'm getting stronger and more flexible.

Then I went to work. Emboldened by the exercises and the beautiful day outside, I left my crutches in the car. I went to work crutches-less! I walk with a significant limp, mostly because I still cannot bend my leg properly at the end of my stride. Still, it was nice having my hands free.

I even went for a (short, careful, and slow) walk in the afternoon. I walked around my building. The sunshine was lovely, but it was windy! It was kinda weird.... either I'm lighter than I think, or I'm weaker than I think, or the wind was a lot stronger than normal. Or most likely, all three.... because I was having trouble moving my leg forward against the wind! Very weird, to find a simple gust of air making me a bit unstable.

Then I got inside and walked up the stairs to my office. Without crutches! Of course, I leaned heavily on the handrails. But it was still a very satisfying little adventure. Now I'm going to try to get some more sleep. I am still pretty darn exhausted.
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lahabiel From: lahabiel Date: April 19th, 2004 07:48 pm (UTC) (Link)
You have a terrific fighting spirit. Kudos!
renniekins From: renniekins Date: April 20th, 2004 09:28 am (UTC) (Link)
Thanks, I try!!
mysteryfem From: mysteryfem Date: April 19th, 2004 07:55 pm (UTC) (Link)
do u mind if i ask why you have crutches and bad leg. As im a newbie heh.

encorecrazay From: encorecrazay Date: April 19th, 2004 08:16 pm (UTC) (Link)
She had reconstructive surgery on one of her knees replacing one of the ligaments; she had the same type of surgery on her other knee about 11 years ago.
renniekins From: renniekins Date: April 19th, 2004 08:18 pm (UTC) (Link)
Not at all! I figure skate competetively, or at least I used to. I hurt my knee doing that back in Nov, tearing my ACL. I finished up the season, then had it operated on 3.5 weeks to reconstruct the torn ligament. Now my knee is fixed, I just have to heal from the surgery and get strong again.

Here's a website that gives an overview of what I had done:
encorecrazay From: encorecrazay Date: April 19th, 2004 08:19 pm (UTC) (Link)
Glad you're getting better, I probably felt about as tired as you were on Saturday after the race. I'd thought about coming up for Penguincon because I haven't seen Gaiman in a few years since he was a guest at ArmadilloCon but I'd made a commitment to run in the race for the City's "team".
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jebra From: jebra Date: April 20th, 2004 05:15 am (UTC) (Link)
The Tron guy explained that, as Tron is much older now, he's no longer the fast-moving, arcade sports software he once was. These days, he's an accounting package. Can you blame him for putting on a few pounds?
renniekins From: renniekins Date: April 20th, 2004 09:14 am (UTC) (Link)
I am guessing that the purpose of a man's dance belt is to hold his "jewels" more discretely. (:
jebra From: jebra Date: April 20th, 2004 10:13 am (UTC) (Link)
Ah. Hmmm. Perhaps I need to go view those photos again and look closer.

Or maybe not.
renniekins From: renniekins Date: April 20th, 2004 09:26 am (UTC) (Link)
Yeah, it was pretty cool. Too bad you didn't make it!

The Tron suit was really neat. I did not notice the dance-belt "issues" until I read a slashdot article in which everybody ragged on him. When I saw him in person, all I noticed was the cool blue-light effect.
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renniekins From: renniekins Date: April 20th, 2004 12:26 pm (UTC) (Link)
Yeah. I think in person, the eye is drawn to the parts that are glowing. I noticed he was heavyset, but mostly I just admired the armor and lights.
jeffreyab From: jeffreyab Date: April 19th, 2004 10:15 pm (UTC) (Link)


It was windy today.

Coming back from supper I was wondering if I could make it back to work without using an alleyway as a windshelter.
stillriver From: stillriver Date: April 20th, 2004 04:11 am (UTC) (Link)
You are recovering at the good speed!

I thought of you this Sunday when I talked to the guy at the sailing club who had ACL reconstruction a week ago and was trying to convince me to go the sailboat with him. He could do everything, but getting wet, and considering the strong wind we had a good chance to flip over. So I refused, but he went out with someone else anyway.

He had his surgery at Sport's Medicine Center at UofM, they used some sort of advanced technique and that's why he was walking without crutches only a week after. This Center takes care of Red Wings players, who want to get on ice ASAP.

But you have the spirit, which help to recover quickly!
renniekins From: renniekins Date: April 20th, 2004 09:26 am (UTC) (Link)
Wow, that sounds pretty agressive! I could hobble after one week, but I definitely had no interest in going sailing...way too energetic.

I'm getting there though...a little better every day.
stillriver From: stillriver Date: April 20th, 2004 10:52 am (UTC) (Link)
He is very energetic, and tends to neglect the common sense.

He said they started to use some sort of pumping device to flex and extend his knee just after the surgery. He stayed in the hospital overnight and this device was on almost all the time. It sounds awfully painful, but apparently it helped him to recover faster.

It sound like you are getting better, hopefully the complete recovery is only a week or two away.
operatic From: operatic Date: April 20th, 2004 07:16 am (UTC) (Link)

even with crutches I remain the semi-invisible girl

When I was an undergrad at UGA and hurt my knee, I found that crutches made me "invisible"; for whatever reason, no one would look at me (and even when people were accommodating me on the campus bus or something, they would look away). Did you observe any similar behavior?
renniekins From: renniekins Date: April 20th, 2004 12:31 pm (UTC) (Link)
Actually no, I haven't noticed that. In fact, I've noticed a lot of people saying things like "Oh, what happened to you?" Or glancing at me with a mix of curiosity/sympathy.

I have noticed that I personally, when I see a more permanently disabled person (missing limbs, or in a wheelchair, deformed, or whatever), do an overcompensating "try not to stare" behavior. Where I see them, start to look more closely out of curiosity, then feel bad about staring, so I instinctively look away too quickly . Probably both reactions aren't very polite, but neither are intentional.

I wonder if what you observed was the "try not to stare" thing?
dreadpiratesiri From: dreadpiratesiri Date: April 20th, 2004 09:55 am (UTC) (Link)
hey rennie, it was awesome getting to see you and hang out with you at the con, and i'm glad we didn't wear out your knee too much. keep on healing and working this hard and next time, i think you'll be the Extreme Elimination Marco Polo champion!
renniekins From: renniekins Date: April 21st, 2004 09:47 am (UTC) (Link)
Same here, it was a fun time! Next time I'll be able to play Marco Polo "for real" instead of cheating outrageously. *grin*
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