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Bugs and Naps and Such
My cat is snoring. Not loudly, but he's breathing deep and nasally. Or maybe he's just doing yoga -- they always had us do some weird breathing noises in yoga class.

I hate making noise when I breathe.

I also hate breathing bugs. You may think these are unrelated, but believe me I make a LOT of noise when I accidentally breathe a bug!

I inhaled two this evening, riding my bike to S&D's. Fortunately I had a lovely time with good friends once I got there, and I ate a lot of much-better-tasting-than-bugs yummy food, both of which made the evening completely worth it.

This afternoon, after reading January and February of A Year in Provence, I took a delicious nap. Often, my naps don't go well. For some reason I usually wake up from a nap in the middle of some kind of panic attack, disoriented and frightened, less rested than when I began.

This time, however, I woke up completely relaxed. It is so rare that I wake up all on my own like that, without the sound of an alarm, a dog barking, or a memory or appointment jolting me awake.

Instead, I just gradually realized I was awakening. I could feel all of my limbs, completely relaxed, heavy, and held down by what felt like more gravity than usual. It was just a delightful feeling, finding myself aware of my motionless body before fully reoccupying it.

I savored it for quite some time, my eyes still closed, my eyelids too heavy to open, my limbs too relaxed to move. When I did finally get up, I felt more relaxed than I have in a very long time.

Wouldn't it be great if sleep were always like that?

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pi3832 From: pi3832 Date: July 10th, 2005 08:26 am (UTC) (Link)
Random question: Do you snore?

Personally, I've been sleeping way too much lately (I need to get a job--no, no, really!), which always leads to weird dreams and odd experiences.

Earlier today (okay, yesterday, but let's not quibble over semantics) I got that heavy-limb feeling. Like I couldn't move even if I desperately wanted to. I became convinved I was having a heart-attack and that I was dying. But, since I was only kinda conscious, I didn't really mind too much.

Then I drifted off again and had twisted dreams. Vivien are you out there? It's okay that our baby is a Sunday child, put in the special school and made to eat hot dogs. At least she's not a Friday child, who are the consequence of cross-breeding with cats and are fed live mice. I've fixed the front tire on the motorcycle and we can get to the airport in time to catch the end of that black and white movie shot in Europe. "Heil Hilter!" indeed. Why did they have that extended flashback, anyway? At least you love me, even if I spend most of my time in the institution. Even the insane need love.
renniekins From: renniekins Date: July 11th, 2005 04:31 am (UTC) (Link)
I sometimes breathe deeply, but I don't snore (as far as I've been told, at least).
jeffreyab From: jeffreyab Date: July 11th, 2005 05:26 am (UTC) (Link)
Based on a sample of one she does not snore.

Now sleeping through the night that is another question.

However I am hopeful due to the lack of recent posts this is less of a problem.
asyatka From: asyatka Date: July 12th, 2005 12:03 am (UTC) (Link)
Did you ride your bike home after the party? Hope someone gave your a ride, since it was so late, and there were quite a few drunk drivers on a road.
renniekins From: renniekins Date: July 13th, 2005 01:42 am (UTC) (Link)
Somebody offered me a ride, but I rode home by choice. It was no problem. It was more like 3am I think, so after the bars had closed. The roads were pretty quiet, I had a bright blinking light, and I stayed extra alert of my surroundings.

If the roads had been crowded, I would have stuck to the sidewalks though. I like to bike, but I'm not crazy! (: (:
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