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the story of an invisible girl
renniekins
renniekins
LJ Confessional
I have a confession I'd like to make. Maybe a few. Sometimes I don't want anybody to know it was ME, but I want to say something.

I think that sometimes other people feel that way too. In fact, just a few days ago somebody on my friends list was musing about how nice it would be if there was a place for non-catholics to confess things.

I know LJ isn't the best place for such things, but I find the occasional anonymous confession to be good -- not to mention that it is fascinating to read others' confessions. I did this once before, and it's worth a read. It's amazing to see how many similar things are on our minds, and also the unique issues that others face.

This post is not friends-locked, and I have turned off IP logging. I am allowing anonymous comments on this post, in fact I am ENCOURAGING anonymous comments on this post! I'd prefer no comments with your user name. This is a place to be honest. Be open. Say whatever's on your mind. Also feel free to respond to other comments -- but stay anonymous.

It's okay to be silly, deeply personal, or somewhere inbetween... but please don't be rude.

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From: (Anonymous) Date: February 23rd, 2007 05:52 pm (UTC) (Link)
I didn't go to church on Wednesday, but I let people think that I had.
From: (Anonymous) Date: February 23rd, 2007 06:02 pm (UTC) (Link)
One of my best friends and I used to be fuckbuddies. Of course the sex was incredible, and I felt quite happy with him, but our relationship ended because we didn't communicate enough.

How come I feel that it is easier to talk to him about sex now that we're not fucking anymore?
From: (Anonymous) Date: February 23rd, 2007 07:12 pm (UTC) (Link)
Because you're not worried anymore about making him feel inadequate with something you might say. Fuckbuddies have feelings too, which kinda makes the whole idea kinda nonsensical.

I'm not judging. I've done the fuckbuddy thing myself. I just think it's kinda pointless. But I've known that and done it anyway, which I guess makes me an idiot, so what do I know?.
From: (Anonymous) Date: February 23rd, 2007 06:10 pm (UTC) (Link)
I continuously feel 'not good enough', and sometimes its because I'm not, I don't go to all the lengths I could potentially do, but mostly its just because I feed off other people too much and their feelings.

I hate it. I know that other people know this about me and use it to their advantage.
From: (Anonymous) Date: February 23rd, 2007 06:20 pm (UTC) (Link)
i have half an urge to cheat.
From: (Anonymous) Date: February 23rd, 2007 06:40 pm (UTC) (Link)
Everyone has felt that.

I desperately wanted my secretary to make a pass at me, if only because I could test and see if I would actually do it. I thought (and still think) she is the sexiest woman I have ever seen. I used to think I'd never think anyone besides my wife would fit that description.

I know I imagined her when I was having sex with my SO. I think both of them knew it too... I was rather transparent in my fascination.

I never did anything, though. I can never decide if that was because I was moral, or because I was a big pussy who didn't take what I wanted. The fact that my SO eventually broke up with me makes me think I should have cheated.
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From: (Anonymous) Date: February 23rd, 2007 06:54 pm (UTC) (Link)
I think my best friend might be halfway Interested in me. And while I feel like I could probably live happily with her for the rest of our lives, I'm not attracted to her.
From: (Anonymous) Date: February 23rd, 2007 10:18 pm (UTC) (Link)
I want to settle down, and I'm considering people that I'm not attracted to. Part of me is still holding out for romance, though.
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From: (Anonymous) Date: February 23rd, 2007 07:05 pm (UTC) (Link)
I hate brushing my teeth. Its makes me want to vomit. I only do it once a day and not at all if i don't have plans.
From: (Anonymous) Date: February 23rd, 2007 10:17 pm (UTC) (Link)
I hate brushing my teeth, too! I do it at bedtime if I can make myself, because I already have all my molars filled, and I will soon have the edges of the flat teeth filled if I don't watch out. Fear is my primary motivator for brushing my teeth. Not being kissed by the person I'm dating is secondary.
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From: (Anonymous) Date: February 23rd, 2007 11:22 pm (UTC) (Link)
I often suspect that people I consider to be my friends aren't really friends, but sort of tolerant acquaintances. Other people around me have lunch, go shopping, go to dinner, watch TV shows, or whatever, with their friends. I seem to only see my friends at large "Everyone is invited" gatherings. Yet at those events I do find people to talk to and have a good time. So I don't have any real sense of who my friends are or are not. I suppose that as long as I'm not really feeling lonely, it doesn't matter a lot, but the feeling that my presence is just being tolerated is still there.
From: (Anonymous) Date: February 23rd, 2007 11:44 pm (UTC) (Link)
I feel like this too. I've always felt that there is always someone else who people would rather be talking to. Every time I think I've formed a good friendship, something seems to go wrong.

I think I have two friends. There are other people I know. When those friends talk about all the people they knew when they were at school etc., I feel like I must be an oddball, because I've only known these friends for three years.
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From: (Anonymous) Date: February 24th, 2007 02:36 am (UTC) (Link)
I want to fuck you. Not trying to be rude or anything. Originally two gals who were living their lives on cam and in LJ for all to see drew me into this. I was interested in why someone would do that. That got me into LJ. Later on I friended gals I wanted to have sex with cause I thought they were damn good looking and smart. To me smart is sexy. Add in good looks and a decent body and I friended 'em. You got friended in my 'I wanna fuck my LJ friends' phase. Now I am over that and friend people that I find interesting. But I friended you cause I wanted to fuck you back in the day. Hope I didn't tick you off.
From: (Anonymous) Date: February 24th, 2007 01:57 pm (UTC) (Link)
Yeah, I want to do the nasty with Rennie too.
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From: (Anonymous) Date: February 24th, 2007 03:35 am (UTC) (Link)
I'm in love with a guy who seems to be in love with me. Everyone around us see's it but he won't admit it. Everyone tells me to just be patient but sometimes I just want to give up.
From: (Anonymous) Date: February 24th, 2007 08:03 am (UTC) (Link)
I'm in love, and it would ruin a great friendship to tell him that.

I almost told him twice tonight... but I had to take a breath and distract myself before I said it, because I know very well that it'd be a stupid thing to say.
From: (Anonymous) Date: February 24th, 2007 06:42 pm (UTC) (Link)
Sometimes there is no smart option.

If you want to get over it, you'll have to tell him. Yes, that may be the end of your friendship--but it's probably doomed now, anyway.

Sorry, I know you aren't looking for advice, but I've learned this the hard way, so I feel compelled to share. And, of course, I may be completely wrong. Trust your initial reaction to what I've written.
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From: (Anonymous) Date: February 24th, 2007 06:07 pm (UTC) (Link)
I think I am the only one here who does not want to fuck you or do the nasty with you. I do think you're beautiful and smart, but I have absolutely no desire to have sex with you.
From: (Anonymous) Date: February 24th, 2007 07:48 pm (UTC) (Link)
You're not the only one. But that's okay... the world would be a weird place if everybody had the same tastes.
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From: (Anonymous) Date: February 24th, 2007 07:20 pm (UTC) (Link)
I am lonely.
From: (Anonymous) Date: February 24th, 2007 10:44 pm (UTC) (Link)
Me too. And the worst part of my lonliness is that more often than not, it's my own fault. I have difficulty with socialization and go through extreme periods of withdrawal from it which results in creating next to no lasting relationships with anyone. Pair that with being fat and feeling that no one in the world accepts you because of it and you have one hell of a mess of a person.
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From: (Anonymous) Date: February 24th, 2007 07:36 pm (UTC) (Link)
I just had sex with someone I don't even find that attractive. They're sleeping it off right now, and I'm feeling like a total slut. :-(
From: (Anonymous) Date: April 2nd, 2007 08:33 pm (UTC) (Link)
I'm still having sex with this person, fairly regularly. What I thought was a one-night-stand has turned into more of an ongoing booty call.

I feel less slutty, but I still feel like I should just get a sex toy rather than use this person for their genitals (and other body parts).
From: (Anonymous) Date: February 24th, 2007 07:53 pm (UTC) (Link)
I maybe have an eating disorder. Youd think that at least purging would make me skinny. But it doesnt which makes it even more frustrating.
From: (Anonymous) Date: February 24th, 2007 08:51 pm (UTC) (Link)
I think I might be pregnant again but I'm too afraid to find out.
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