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Alpaca Totem
I thought everybody was aware by now that I now consider the alpaca to be my spiritual totem. However it's possible that I never mentioned it. In fact the few times when I have brought it up in recent conversation, I've received some puzzled stares and, dare I say, even laughter?

Ever since my first alpaca encounter back in september, it has become increasingly clear to me that alpacas and I share a special and mystical connection. The alpaca appears again and again in my life journey -- on bicycle rides, in vans, cider mills, and in other unexpected situations. Any time my life feels a little tired or meaningless, I turn around, and there is evidence of a gentle alpaca shadowing my steps.

I had begun to suspect quite some time ago that there was a closer connection between myself and the alpaca than there is with ordinary animals. Then about a month ago sandygood stumbled across clear evidence of my growing kinship with alpacas.

Sometime last summer, I was at her house and she pulled out some modeling clay. I should note that this was months before my first alpaca encounter. I took some clay and started playing with it while we conversed. My fingers amused themselves while I paid them no real attention. I was not attempting sculpture or art of any sort: if anything I was just doodling with clay. When I was through playing I set the little thing aside. For one reason or another it was never recycled nor thrown away -- instead it dried unnoticed.

Not long ago SG found it again and realized the truth: my subconscious was already establishing its connection with its spiritual totem. Without thinking about it, without having even seen an alpaca in real life.... my fingers had formed one out of clay. Its shape is primitive, vague and ethereal, a shape without a fully-formed identity. However in retrospect, it is clearly the beginnings of an alpaca.

SG is not the only one to sense my growing affinity with alpacas. Recently rmeidaking also took note of the connection. She was so stirred by the alpaca's mysticism that, when she stumbled across a skein of alpaca wool, she took it upon herself to knit me an alpaca hat! She gave it to me at ConFusion. It is soft and warm and pretty. (not to mention impressively constructed)

I love my alpaca hat, one of my most tangible connections to my spiritual totem. Whenever I wear it, it is like a big alpaca hug. Around my head.

In conclusion: I believe that the above two stories and photos are strong evidence that the alpaca is my spiritual totem. Not only have I noticed it, but other people in my life have remarked and acted upon it.

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mrs_sweetpeach From: mrs_sweetpeach Date: January 30th, 2008 03:08 am (UTC) (Link)
I can't think of alpacas without thinking of you. And I think of alpacas often, as I simply love their wool. Some day, when I'm good enough at knitting, I'm going to make a sweater for myself with it.

The hat's fabulous, btw. rmeidaking does excellent work.
hannunvaakuna From: hannunvaakuna Date: January 30th, 2008 03:13 am (UTC) (Link)
I can't think of alpacas without thinking of you.

renniekins From: renniekins Date: January 31st, 2008 02:01 am (UTC) (Link)
Coolness. See? More proof that the alpaca and I are inextricably linked!
rustymarble From: rustymarble Date: January 30th, 2008 03:47 am (UTC) (Link)

And here I was thinking your totem was a Crab this whole time!
Maybe you could have a crabby alpaca be your totem? You know...like rearing and spitting!

Edited at 2008-01-30 03:47 am (UTC)
renniekins From: renniekins Date: January 31st, 2008 01:58 am (UTC) (Link)
Alas, poor Lobster....

I'm not so sure about a crabby alpaca though. I like to think of them as friendly!
djinnthespazz From: djinnthespazz Date: January 30th, 2008 03:56 am (UTC) (Link)

Its shape is primitive, vague and ethereal,

The best kind of spiritual sculpture, don't you think?

One of these days I'll have to find and photograph the jr hi dragon I sculpted. I love it just for its primitive and ethereal presence!
renniekins From: renniekins Date: January 31st, 2008 01:59 am (UTC) (Link)

Re: Its shape is primitive, vague and ethereal,

Yes indeedy. You should, it'd be fun to see!
swerve From: swerve Date: January 30th, 2008 04:48 am (UTC) (Link)
I love when the world does something both inexplicable and beautiful. It keeps my sense of wonder alive. :)
renniekins From: renniekins Date: January 31st, 2008 01:59 am (UTC) (Link)
stephe From: stephe Date: January 30th, 2008 12:52 pm (UTC) (Link)
I take it, then, that you are intrigued by this news?
renniekins From: renniekins Date: January 31st, 2008 01:57 am (UTC) (Link)
HAHAHA! I hadn't seen that, thanks for showing me!!
bowmaniac From: bowmaniac Date: January 30th, 2008 03:44 pm (UTC) (Link)
That's awesome, funny stuff. The universe definitely has a sense of humor. And I love the hat, looks all kinds of warm and comfy. :)

One of the Recent Dirty Jobs episodes (I know, I have a bit of an obsession with the show) had him working with a large animal vet and one of the animals they were examining was an alapaca and my first thought was of you and your alpaca encounters. So not only is the alpaca your spiritual totem but you're spreading the alpaca love far and wide.
renniekins From: renniekins Date: January 31st, 2008 01:57 am (UTC) (Link)
Awesome. :D
joline From: joline Date: January 31st, 2008 01:08 am (UTC) (Link)
I love this post! You're very cute.

I love reading about animal totems. I think mine change to send me different messages that I've needed in different times of my life. I remember once when I couldn't escape spiders, even in bizarre places -- like running across pages of books I was reading or sitting in water fountains I was drinking out of!
renniekins From: renniekins Date: January 31st, 2008 02:00 am (UTC) (Link)
Thank you! (:

Spiders, yikes! Fortunately I don't think I've ever had a buggy totem.
From: (Anonymous) Date: July 2nd, 2009 01:43 pm (UTC) (Link)

look at the orb

Look at the orb over your alpaca hat... There is an angel/guide who is right with you and agrees about your alpaca. Send me your email address and I will send you a few pics of the alpacas that live down the hill from me. I, too, have an affinity with them. Pam Case pamcase8@cox.net
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