alpaca princess (renniekins) wrote,
alpaca princess

Happiness amidst the chaos

In Florida, at a souvenir shop, my sis and I found some cute little seashell ankle bracelets. They were the cheesy style you see lots of places, each anklet with a different color beads, and each color is supposed to represent a different wish or desire. Like passion, wealth, peace, happiness.

They were 2 for $5, and cute, so we decided to each get one. The sign instructed us that we should select the color that represents our wish, then tie the anklet on. When it falls off, your wish will be granted.

Sis went with purple, for passion. I was trying to decide between the white and the pearl colors, peace or happiness. I was leaning toward peace at first, but it occurred to me that in my tumultuous life -- at least at its current state -- peace is too much to expect. Thus I selected the pearl-colored beads, for happiness. I don't think peace is an option right now, but I'm hoping for happiness amidst the chaos.

My contract with my current client is officially up at the end of April. Our project is not finished yet, so they might add on a few weeks. I don't know yet. If that ends, I expect that my consulting company will place me somewhere else quickly. I know they've submitted my resume about, but I don't yet know where I'll land.

So come May, I don't know where I'll be working. Fortunately I have a fun wedding to attend on Friday May 1st, followed by a fun Penguicon. That should be a great weekend!

The following Thursday, I have a less-than-fun knee surgery to look forward to. I don't know precisely what my doctor will be doing once he gets inside, nor does he. I might be back on my own two feet as quickly as a couple of days, or I might find myself on crutches for 4 to 6 weeks, depending on the type of repair he decides upon. Fortunately, I have a great boyfriend to help me out before and after the surgery. That part is good!

So to sum up, I don't currently know where I'll be working in May, and I don't currently know if I'll be able to walk. See what I mean about chaos? It's all a little stressful.

At least right now, peace is too much to aim for. But for the most part, I'm happy. I'm stressed out, but I have lots of reasons to be happy anyway. I don't even need a seashell anklet with pearl-colored beads to grant me happiness.... but it sure can't hurt.
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