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I have been feeling enormous all day today, and I hate it. I am… - cellophane — LiveJournal
the story of an invisible girl
I have been feeling enormous all day today, and I hate it. I am hoping it is because my jeans shrank a bit in the wash, not because I have turned into a fat cow. A good argument for the former is the fact that my scale this morning claimed I was only 6.5 pounds away from my Goal Weight, when I was 7 away from it when I checked before leaving Friday. But I still feel enormous. I must do something about it.

I found a nifty site, which allows you to keep track of what you eat, your weight, activities, and such. According to it, if I am to lose 6.5 pounds by Christmas (a reasonable target I think), then I must lose 1.57 per week. Challenging, but not unthinkable.

The problem is that even while thinking all day about how much I would like to get skinny, I was also hungry all day, and craving all kinds of snacks. I didn't give in to all of my cravings, but some. Among other things, I ate a chocolate cigar, leftover from when my boss had babies. Quite self-defeating...but tasty, heehee....

I got home and there was a big envelope in my mailbox. It was from my friend B, who lives far away and occasionally sends me presents because he is a wonderfully kind person. Sometimes he bakes cookies. I hefted the envelope, and despite my day of skinny goals, my immediate thought was, "Too small for cookies." I am pathetic.

On the bright side, it was a music book, piano music written by Sarah McLachlan! She is a wonderful singer/musician. I already have some of her sheet music, and have learned to play one song (Ice) quite well. This new book has a couple of songs I like a lot. I think I am going to begin by learning to play and sing "Angel", which is just beautiful. Much much better than food, even cookies! *grin*

Current Music: Angel by Sarah McLachlan

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cannibal From: cannibal Date: November 27th, 2001 08:16 pm (UTC) (Link)
Moo Moo Moo! You have not turned into a fat cow! I actually just weighed myself at the gym, and discovered I've gained 3 pounds... my weight has been stable for a long time, wonder what's changed? Perhaps the fact that it was my first visit to the gym for weeks. So you're not the only one who needs to lose some weight, and there's nothing the least bit pathetic about you!

Is there a URL we can all go to and check your progress? (ducking)
renniekins From: renniekins Date: November 27th, 2001 09:10 pm (UTC) (Link)

Thanks for the encouragement! (: They actually have that option on the site I mentioned, to make your info public, but I am much too shy to actually use it. I don't want anybody knowing my weight...too horrifying to mention...heehee....
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